Psalm 139 has always been my favourite, but this year it's been especially pertinent. Richard and I were raised in church being taught that God is very interested in our character development; that he brings things about to change us, our attitudes, our character to become more Christlike. The last few verses of Psalm 139 has struck a chord with me in regards to God exposing my reactions and making them more Christlike.
I don't like it. It makes me look bad. I don't like it when people see me in a panic, upset and stressed. Especially when they are not related to me. I don't like it, but I know it's necessary. It makes me take responsibility for my actions and make some changes.
"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me amd know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting"
Having no working kitchen appliances and no gas supply has exposed some ugly parts in me, but it's brought out some gold too.
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